Conversations with God

I saw this old piano and hymn book and thought of my Great Sustainer.

ME: When will this man ask me to marry him?

GOD: You both are sheep but are longing to find your way home. I am your Shephard…come back to me and make this covenant as three.

ME: God, please save our baby….don’t let me miscarry.

GOD: My child, let the little one come to me, for such belongs the kingdom of God. Your baby is safe in my arms. You will see him again one day.

ME: God, please give us means to be missionaries in Brazil. We know the harvest is great and the workers are few.

GOD: My child, look right outside your front door. There is a field waiting to be sown. Go into all the world and proclaim the gospel to the whole creation. People from everywhere, including your neighbors, need to meet me.

ME: God, let me be a stay at home mom. I want to be with my children.

GOD: Child, students may not be your children, but they are My children. I’ve placed you there for reasons that are important. Whoever receives one such child in my name receives me.

ME: God, please help my husband get a raise at work. He is such a hard worker and we really need the money.

GOD: Child, have faith that I will provide for you and your family. Seek first My kingdom and My righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

ME: God, please help me feel renewed; my spirit feels anxious with these everyday life worries.

GOD: Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Come find your rest in me for my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

ME: God, I love you.

GOD: Shawna, I love you.

Yes, God knows me by name.

Many times in life I do not understand why things happen or why they don’t; not only in my personal life, but in the circumstances of other peoples’ lives as well. Sometimes even in the lives of people I’ve never met. Many times I ask God why certain things happen or wonder what He is up to in a particular situation. Sometimes I get an answer that meets my heart’s desire, while other times I don’t like the answer at all. But all in all I know that every moment in time was laid out before a single day had passed. His ways are not always our ways, but His ways are right and just.

In His Name & All His Glory,

Shawna

Little Jack

Little Jack, at least that's the nickname Jackson has gotten from his Daddy and Grandad. Jackson's Grandad, my dad, has always been called Big Jack. Sometimes we call him LJ but I still usually call him Jackson. So now we have MG and LJ...that is too funny.

Happy 3 month old birthday to my baby boy! The last three months have been a whirlwind of excitement. Jackson has grown so much since his 1 month checkup. He doesn't go back to the doctor until 4 months so I will update more stats then, but I do know that he already weighs 15 pounds! Not bad, not bad at all. :-)  Jackson is getting so strong these days, he can stand up for a good 5 minutes now. He coos a lot, especially in the evening times, and he is a big smiler. We had his reflux prescription increased a little over a month ago and instantly saw an improvement in his mood. He is such a happy baby and sleeps through the night. He has his last feeding around 10:30 pm and usually wakes up for his next feeding around 5:30 am. Our family has already settled into a routine, but are always prepared to roll with the punches or whatever the day may bring.

Here are some stats on Jackson...
Weight: 15 pounds
Clothes: 3-6 months, and occasionally 6-9 months depending on the designer
Words (haha): a lot of cooing, sounds like oonga, mama, and un. So now I'm thinking & hoping 'Momma' will be his first word!
Favorite toy: toy octopus & possibly my hair which he grabs a hold of quite frequently
Favorite Food: Milk of course...We will be trying rice cereal when Jackson is 4 or 5 months old. That is always a fun time. 

Also, just in case you haven't figured this out, we are completely spoiling our baby boy! We are spoiling him with lots of love, hugs, kisses, and snuggles! Big sister Makayla is doing such a wonderful job helping out. Even at such a young age she is very motherly towards Jackson. It's wonderful seeing that bond develop. I will leave you with some more super cute pics of baby Jackson.

Jackson & MG

Never enough snuggles...I could snuggle with LJ every hour!

Seriously I think he is already teething.

Just cuddling on the couch with my sweet boy

My Cup Overflows

a letter to my heavenly Father….

Dear Father,

I do not deserve this mercy, but my Lord you decided so. Jesus, you have made a place for me. My cup overflows. You seek me today and tomorrow. Your love never fails. You have never forsaken me. I’ve felt your healing power. You chose me. You rescued me. Now let me lift my hands in prayer and thanksgiving. Let me bow my head for your mercy and grace have fallen upon me and I am in complete awe of You. Thank you, Jesus, for walking with me everyday.

Your Child,

Shawna

Were You There?

Were you there when they crucified my Lord
Were you there when they crucified my Lord
Sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble
Were you there when they crucified my Lord

And were you there when they laid Him in the tomb
Were you there when they laid His precious body in the tomb
Sometimes it causes me to tremble, I cry and I tremble
Were you there when they laid Him in the tomb

Were you there when He rose from the grave
Were you there when my Jesus rose from the grave
Sometimes it makes me want to shout
And I cry and I begin to tremble, I tremble
Were you there when He rose from the grave